{"id":50,"date":"2014-09-24T06:30:00","date_gmt":"2014-09-24T06:30:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/typingmonkeys.com\/ait\/?p=50"},"modified":"2018-02-21T22:32:12","modified_gmt":"2018-02-22T02:32:12","slug":"therapy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/possiblegirl.com\/sotheresthat\/therapy\/","title":{"rendered":"Day 2: Therapy"},"content":{"rendered":"
The fear has crept in.<\/span><\/div>\n
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It’s so easy to make courageous pronouncements from the safety of one’s home. It’s another to take a sterile NYC elevator up ten stories to meet a complete stranger and acknowledge things I’ve only ever admitted to myself.<\/span><\/div>\n
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So I nervously sit in the waiting area (in boy mode), waiting for my turn, trying not to check the time on my phone every 30 seconds.\u00a0<\/span>Finally I am beckoned into the therapist’s office.<\/span>Mercifully, she is kind, calm and comforting.<\/span><\/p>\n

And I babble.<\/span><\/p>\n

I barely let her get in a word edgewise. Because it is such a relief to unburden myself for the first time. To admit that I am transgendered (“I accept!”).<\/span><\/p>\n

I am emotional. I am happy. I am unburdened. Probably for the first time in my life.<\/span><\/p>\n

The time flies by and the session nears its end. My favorite line? “Oh, you’re definitely transgendered.” But she also gently and kindly scolds me for self-medicating my hormone therapy (more on that later), and recommends I get my blood work checked (liver damage being the biggest danger).<\/span><\/p>\n

I grudgingly agree, but ask for recommendations in NYC instead of home back in Maryland. New York just feels… friendlier. And don’t think I could come clean with my current doctor. At least not yet.<\/span><\/p>\n

We agree to talk again in a week and I return to the elevator that suddenly doesn’t seem so sterile anymore.<\/span><\/div>\n

Note: When I began transitioning in 2014, I was known by my nickname DiG, which sufficed until I learned my mom had chosen Jennifer had my birth gone differently. So for historical sake, I leave my posts and podcasts as originally conceived, but know that my name is and apparently always was Jen.<\/i><\/span><\/div>\n
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